Here is The Reason

I hit rock bottom.

There's no avoiding that truth.

I was tired in every way...not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually. I'd reached a point where I knew I couldn't keep living the way I was. I didn't have answers anymore, and I didn't trust myself to fix it.

Something changed in me.

The best way I can explain it is that God stepped in. It felt like a switch flipped. Not suddenly perfect, just clear. Clear that I couldn't go on like this. Clear that I needed help.

I spent two weeks with my parents, and those weeks mattered more than I can explain. They gave me a safe place when I didn't feel safe in myself. They didn't judge me or pressure me. My parents just let me be there. 😔 I realised what unconditional love is. 

Being with them slowed everything down. I could breathe again. I could think. I could feel things I'd been avoiding. I believe God used that time and used my parents to hold me up when I couldn't stand on my own.

Sobriety didn't start because I felt strong. It started because I stopped fighting.

I let God in. I accepted help from my parents. I admitted I didn't have control anymore, and I didn't want to pretend that I did.

I chose sobriety because I realised my life matters. Because God reminded me of that through the people who love me the most. Because I don't want to keep running from myself. 

That's my why.

God. My parents and my three children.

Not perfect. Not finished...... Just honest!